over and over and over...

"Feeling your styles the causes your blankets that saved me
Over and over and over and over you played me
Afraid of rejection the places we went that defaced me
Over and over and over and over you saved me ...."

the coral sea.

I dont really know wht these lines mean, but I have a pretty picture in my mind!! Its a nice enough song that I heard on Grey's Anatomy.
Afraid of rejection. Damn, I hate it, the fear of rejection.
Stops us frm most of everything, right. Like something as simple as a new hair colour could be a thing you wouldnt do because you are afraid tht ppl might not like it, and will say "Yikes!"
But the nicest thing is when you are scared and afraid and they go out and save you. Over and over and over and over.... lolz!
this is crap, i dont evn understand wht i am typing anymore! i love this, no one reads my blog, and i can write whatever i want!!! lolz!

the great Nose-dive.

Well, life's just taken a nose-dive and I want to wallow in self pity, but I guess Im not even entitled to that, after doing everything that I do. I think its a rotten thing, this. What irritates me most is that ALL those plans that we had are down the drain, chute and pipe. Its so crappy, though I know that everything will, one day be fine, its just tht the waiting and anticipation has been so much that I guess only I know how much shattered it seems. Im not even bothered about the studying, just tht I believe, I deserved a break... whose prospects seem rather bleak now.

And then there are always the other things going on. I wish I could be one of those persons who could just stop feeling. But I dont and hence am not. Its so blue, my "love life", if you please. But its funny how happy one person can make me! And what sucks most is that my best-laid plans are well all gone now.

I guess life's trying sometimes but the sheer un-fairness of it all sucks!!!

"Life could have been, lovely and uncomplicated,
If the dreams that we were fulfulling were our own,
And days could have been lucky and iridescent,
-Look at how we've grown."

The worst part is how easy it is for someone to say "Its just 2o more days, yaar, cmon. "

CRAZY CRAZY NIGHTS!!!!

"And they try to tell us that we don't belong
But that's alright, we're millions strong
You are my people, you are my crowd,
this is our music, we love it loud

Yeah, and nobody's gonna change me, 'cos that's who I am "

KISSSSS!!!!

ONE MORE #$@#%#$% DAY

ONE
one
one
less thn some hours.


one

just one more day,through this crap. im so close now, im waiting for the panic to set in.

ONE


one.

Do Opposites Attract?

The other day, I was wondering if the proverbial opposites do attract. I asked, my esteemed and grown-up cousin, tht, well, since I am insane and weird, the guy that I hook up with, should be mad like me or sober and sensible. Accordingly to him , since opposites attract, the guy tht I shall end up with will be *hopefully* sober and sensible. Also, if he was half as mad as me, our kids would surely be demented. SO.

There is a sort of security when the person involved is so different from you. The fact tht you and them have very few common interests might be daunting but I dont think thats so much of a problem, coz all u need is love! I dont know, but I really like it, being sure that where you'll falter, he'll not. Being certain that he'll understand evn if he doesnt approve. And being sure, that the differences we have arent a hindrace, but they bolster us, make us wht we are, and thus lovable. I love being so different, we're wired so differently, we're great.


Though, I love the look on people's face when I do something characteristically mad, and "me."
I could grow old looking at the astonished at first, and then the amused expressions that everyone usually has! And, its just cute.



"We're like night and day - White and black
But what we have is a perfect match
When I say this - you say that
But love comes easy 'cause opposites attract"

A Perfect Match, A*teens!

PISCES
Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. Always lets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet.

I don't even know if all/any of this is true.
Well, the extremely weird part is true!! lolz! as, many, of my pals would say!

I don't know if we can believe the words of a forwarded email!!

safe.

SAFE.


It makes me feel soo nice.
"You are safe with me."

Its a nice way to say you care.
I love it when he says "Fall, I'm there with safe hands."
For a second, I 'd like to believe he meant in the way.

And its better to say, "I know".



Im all fuzzy inside!!

YOU ARE ALL THAT I HAVE!!!!!

SNOW PATROLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!! I LOVE THESE GUYS! THEY PUT THE JOY IN DANCING IN LUURRVVVEEE WITH HAPPINESS!!! (nor have i ever heard a song more happy bout some being their "all tht I have!!"

"Strain this chaos turn it into light,
I've gotta see you one last night,
Before the lions take their share,
Leave us in pieces, scattered everywhere,

Just give me a chance to hold on
Just give me something to hold onto,

It's so clear now that you are all that I have,
I have no fear cause you are all that I have,

You're cinematic razor sharp,
A welcome arrow through the heart,
Under your skin feels like home,
Electric shocks on aching bones,

Give me a chance to hold on,
Give me a chance to hold on,
Give me a chance to hold on,
Just give me something to hold onto,

It's so clear now that you are all that I have,
I have no fear cause you are all that I have,
It's so clear now that you are all that I have,
I have no fear cause you are all that I have,

There is a darkness deep in you,
A frightning magic I cling to,


Give me a chance to hold on,
Give me a chance to hold on,
Give me a chance to hold on,
Just give me something hold onto,
It's so clear now that you are all that I have,
I have no fear now you are all that I have,
It's so clear now that you are all that I have,
I have no fear now you are all that I have."

I lubbb you, snow patrol!

CANDY STORE!!!

Coarse and rough, smooth as ever
I can hear your laughter, and I can imagine your smile,
just around the corner in a candy store in the sun,
there you'll be, in just a little while.

You are picking out our favourite pieces and
thinking of us now, I know you.
the red cars are crawling slowly,
I'm ready with a kiss to blow you.

You'll look up from the rainbow colors, and wave-
grin a cheeky grin when you see me in a purple coat.
then jam your hands in your pockets, and smile
when you see me crossing the whites on the zebra on the road.

and,


the Sun, ooh the Sun streams down upon you,
the candy's melted sticky I'm sure,sticky,
sitting on red park benches,reading the sky,
with your head in my lap, feed each other greedily.

and laughter, you laugh at every insane thing I say,
and shake violently,
maybe this madness is love.
maybe its the candy.

4 July 2007

sparkle me.

The other day I saw a re-run of Grey's Anatomy Season 2 finale, 'Losing My Religion'. And I actually wept. (I only ever wept while watching something was - 'I am Sam', 'Masoom', And one episode of 'FRIENDS'!!!) It was so, plainly poignant, desperate love. Izzy and Denny. I was so crushed to see him die. WHY!!! Being in love, the actual heady thing, must be a heavenly thing.

"Your eyes they always sparkle me with love ....."- the Buffseeds.

And after all that the world is coming to, I dont think the feeling of loverly suspension, of absolute bloody bliss would be rivalled by nothing. HELL, evn irrational li'l crushes are soo cute!! I may be a random teenager struggling with life, fitting in and standing out, but I dont think I'll ever be cynical enough to disregard something so H-U-G-E. I don't think Ill ever be otherwise inclined towards the love-drug!

Your eyes they always sparkle me with love.
(yeah, and brown-brown ones too! )